Close To Insanity by Brian Douglas and John Jennings, © 2004, Jesuswood Publishing
Lyrics	Writers notes
How dare you leave me Who can I call on now? Can I ever catch my breath? Need to get rid of it somehow The pressure is so intense I feel I’m about to explode I need a permanent fix I’ve let the enemy take hold Why can’t I have just one peaceful day? Just let it all melt away pre-chorus So much anger taking up my life Is it me or the world that causes my strife? Why do I feel such hatred? I wish I could let it go chorus My friends, they’re all so jaded They’re wrong and don’t even know Can’t believe what I’ve done Can’t believe what I’ve said Estranged everyone around me Afraid I’ve made my bed Lord can they ever forgive me? Would you forgive me for who I am? I wish to be a different person And with you I know I can Why can’t I have just one peaceful day? Just let it all melt away pre-chorus So much anger taking up my life Is it me or the world that causes my strife? Why do I feel such hatred? I wish I could let it go chorus My friends they’re all so jaded They’re wrong and don’t even know I’ve carried it on my shoulders Being crushed it’s so intense Like the enemy throwing boulders Got to reach the other side of the fence Sweet Jesus I need to know you Take away my spite full pain I need you to help me through Otherwise I’ll go insane Repeat: pre-chorus and chorus	Do any of you know someone who is continually in “Crisis Mode”? I’ll bet some of you do. I once had a friend who just couldn’t live without a continual cloud of anarchy around him. Because of this, he has alienated most of his friends by his raging outbursts and insecurities. I myself have experienced this trait. As a matter of fact, we would have great bitch sessions on the phone. We would complain about politics and other things. Well, one day I realized that my blood pressure was too high and I was stressed out all the time. I made a conscious decision; I needed to make changes in my life. Making the decision was only the first step. The advantage I had was the fact that I knew that I had a friend and physician in Jesus Christ. So through soul searching and prayer, I was able to make a difference in my life. I had finally found true peace. Well, not wanting to live my life like that anymore, I didn’t want the stress that I got from having bitch sessions on the phone or at any other time. I told my friend about the changes that I wanted to make in my life and tried to share with him how I was able to make these changes. He wanted nothing to do with it. Long story short, I couldn’t be yoked with that type of attitude. I don’t hate him; I still like him in many ways. I’ve found that some times you have to distance yourself from people like this so you can keep your own sanity. That doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t keep on praying for them. Sometimes you really have to look at yourself. The problem could be with you.